Somedays I wonder if Im crazy, and somedays I know

so ive been hiding away alot

I dont feel to close to anyone but my ex

I miss him and i cant have him back cause i threw it away im either a moron or just dont realize whats good for me yet

hopefully this new thing works out, i just dont feel very close yet

I miss all the people i knew from like 3 or 4 years ago too. where are you mother fuckers at?

How's everyone doing?

Personally I think things are looking up on my side of the fence. just a few wrinkles im not sure how to iron out

Today is my final mock surgery to get into the hospital. I'm uber excited and slightly nervous

I don't like comments with no name.

So things are looking up. I work at the internet cafe again. Its pretty cool, we are opening a bistro tye place next door, ill work there too, we are hiring so come on by if you need a job.

Other than that lots of perties with good friends at my house. I love my lil castle on the beach <3

Tenchu with Robert is definately the game plan for today

So today is my birthday. I went to Ibar last night and had a really fantastic time with Sally, Ashley, Bebop, Fishy, kate, and john. We even ran into more people we knew. I got kicked out by an asshole bouncer like 20 minutes before the place close, which was pretty awesome.

So Im going back again tonight and maybe a hooka bar. then tomorrow theres a party at my house ^^

Much love LJ I ignore you alot

So the one day I have an hour of kill time at the college I go to play WoW, since my new place doesn't have internet yet.

Well it's tuesday which means I cant play cause they are updating their laggy ass servers >=(

It never ceases to amaze me the shitty things I find out about people from months ago.
Hurray for drunk confessions?

This is the moment that you know
That you told her that you loved her but you don't.
You touch her skin and then you think
That she is beautiful but she don't mean a thing to me.
Yeah, she is beautiful but she don't mean a thing to me.

I spent two weeks in Silverlake
The California sun cascading down my face
There was a girl with light brown streaks
And she was beautiful but she didn't mean a thing to me.
Yeah she was beautiful but she didn't mean a thing to me.

Wanted to believe in all the words that i was speaking
As we moved together in the dark
And all the friends that i was telling
And all the playful misspellings
And every bite i gave you left a mark

Tiny vessels oozed into your neck
And formed the bruises
That you said you didn't want to fade
But they did and so did i that day

All i see are dark grey clouds
In the distance moving closer with every hour
So when you ask "was something wrong?"
That i think "you're damn right there is but we can't talk about it now.
No, we can't talk about it now."

So one last touch and then you'll go
And we'll pretend that it meant something so much more
But it was vile, and it was cheap
And you are beautiful but you don't mean a thing to me
Yeah you are beautiful but you don't mean a thing to me

Sometimes Im really stressed and I have no idea what I'm doing. I never fail to really really make myself worse before I get better though.

Though right now I think I'm getting better, I'm just sorry I put someone in a position where I need their help, but I'm glad I picked someone who's willing to work when it gets down to me flipping out.

Somedays being crazy isn't that bad

I no longer have any patience for any relationship problems including any of those which I may have


Maybe in a few weeks I can handle it again, hopefully not though

I just can't understand why people, including myself throw themselves into such terrible places just because of one person maybe its love, or maybe its just some fucked up chemicals your body produces

I think we misplaced our ideas in movies

In other news ive worn down the surface of my laptop where my WoW wrist sits....

and I really dont want to hear any comments

I just want it to be October again

I can't post on here ever for real cause I don't want any of you to read it.


Livejournal is retarded this is the last post I think I'll ever make.

Back to the good old pen and paper

I bought adorable green cuffed shorts.


Ethan is coming to see me ^^


I wish poeple were more straight-forward


I have tomorrow off work!

I miss some people, but I have a feeling I'm not going to be hearing from them.

IdleHeartz: and I <3 you gabby-kins cause your always gonna be my friend wheter you like it or not

Okay so Im looking for a roommate or preferably someone with a place who needs a roommate. I have some rent history and I have a steady good paying job. So if you or anyone you know is looking give me a call 295-3514

I fell in love again
all things go, all things go
drove to Chicago
all things know, all things know
we sold our clothes to the state
I don't mind, I don't mind
I made a lot of mistakes
in my mind, in my mind

you came to take us
all things go, all things go
to recreate us
all things grow, all things grow
we had our mindset
all things know, all things know
you had to find it
all things go, all things go

I drove to New York
in the van, with my friend
we slept in parking lots
I don't mind, I don't mind
I was in love with the place
in my mind, in my mind
I made a lot of mistakes
in my mind, in my mind

you came to take us
all things go, all things go
to recreate us
all things grow, all things grow
we had our mindset
all things know, all things know
you had to find it
all things go, all things go

if I was crying
in the van, with my friend
it was for freedom
from myself and from the land
I made a lot of mistakes
I made a lot of mistakes
I made a lot of mistakes
I made a lot of mistakes

you came to take us
all things go, all things go
to recreate us
all things grow, all things grow
we had our mindset
all things know, all things know
you had to find it
all things go, all things go

you came to take us
all things go, all things go
to recreate us
all things grow, all things grow
we had our mindset
(I made a lot of mistakes)
all things know, all things know
(I made a lot of mistakes)
you had to find it
(I made a lot of mistakes)
all things go, all things go
(I made a lot of mistakes)

Today is 4/20 and I admit it's a little bit cliche to be high right now.I really don't enjoy people in general and they seem to act more idiotic on this day, mostly because it's a bunch of jack ass little punks faking stoned. Honestly though, I enjoy the idea that I know there are atleast 500 other people high right now too.

Turn on. Tune in. Drop out.